Monday, October 28, 2013

Nope, I Can't Let It Go


Okay, it's been a week since the my sick-induced marathon DNF(blech) and I've had plenty of time for reflection.

So...I lied.


I can't let this go.  I know I said I was going to, but I can't--it's fucking eating away at me.  I can't let the training go to waste-I can't let all that time become a waste..and most importantly, I can't and I WON'T let myself down.

This is what I am doing instead--this past week was a crazy low mileage week for me.  Let's call this another taper.  In that time I went only and ordered my own marathon finisher medal, picked another date, and am going to run this damn marathon.
 I didn't say much to anyone, but, it's tomorrow.  Tomorrow is the day I WILL absolutely run my marathon-earn my medal, earn the right to keep my 26.2 training sticker on the back of my car, wear the 26.2 bracelet my best friend, Mel gave to me, and be able to wear the awesome marathon embroidered jacket and shirt I got at the expo(dude, I spent $75 on the friggin' jacket-I need to wear it!.  Sure..it's not THE Baystate Marathon, but it'll be MY Baystate Marathon, and I'm okay with that.


I'm sure some people may still think of me as a fraud, but I don't care.  This is what I need to do for myself, and no matter how you slice it 26.2 miles is indeed a marathon.  No matter where and how you do it.

I think this will get me back to feeling better mentally, because I've basically been beating myself up over it, even though I legitimately got sick.  It just doesn't sit well.

"Krissy didn't do it, she couldn't finish."


Indeed, Willy Wonka, you weirdly sexy man you.

Wish me luck.  Or don't. It's cool, either way--because I'm doing this either way.


Til tomorrow, guys.



Go Fork Yourselves,

Krissy

2 comments:

  1. Way to go! I hope you have a great run, I look forward to hearing about you crossing the finish line.

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  2. Dude- You got this. And I can imagine it would be hard to left go, you've spent so much time preparing! You will kick ass today!
    I'm one of the birds on your back (not really but ya know- I got ya back!)

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